In the beginning,

i wrote in notebooks. Here's the ones since i decided to create a blog.

April 13
I've decided to start writing, beginning today, with the influence and support of a new friend. Props to Candis for motivation. I've also decided to share what I like in a blog. Whether I start this today or not is still a mystery to me. My desires and goals are a mystery or a puzzle that i've only just begun to solve. I went and lived on my own for some time when I left for school and recently moved back home. Moving home has given me some reassurance that I can accomplish what I'd like to in my life. I am so lucky to have a place to go and family to turn to when things get tough. I'm very glad to have the experience of living on my own but it was not as comfortable as anyone would have liked and this has much to do with being unprepared and without a plan. I am capable of going on living my whole life working and living paycheck to paycheck (or tip to tip in my case), but where's the growth and progress? Isn't this what gives us some purpose...growth...or is it the inevitable? Either way i'd like to grow in a way that betters my own life and those around me. More to come, thanks for listening. I hope my writings become a tool for personal growth and with the feedback from others who have been where i am; I hope to thrive.

Another day in April
With the beautiful weather comes new and beautiful inspiration. I plan to learn about Jamie Oliver after my nutrition teacher mentioned his name yet again in class. She also mentioned that our generation is the first brought up on artificial sweeteners and we have yet to fully determine their side effects. Sort of like her generation with trans fats, hopefully there's a better ending to our story.
I've discovered a good time for myself to write is after I drive home from classes. After learning all morning, it's time to share. Coming home to an empty house gives my mind plenty of space to think. Thinking and writing before I go enjoy my day clears stress and worry from the brain. I only hope, to one day, surround myself with similar folks who enjoy thinking and like to challange one another intellectually. Like-minded people but with differing interests who are capable and willing to compare and discuss those interests. A personal goal is to eventually build a family with whom i can share my thoughts with. Maybe this is a personal downfall, that I don't open up to those who are allready in my life and caring about me.
Lots of thoughts today, hard to make sense of them all, I'm taking today as a good beginning. Feeling motivated :) Sweet <3

Wanted: People of solidity and substance.

Another day in April after a good night in April
Low--feeling crappy today so instead of focusing on the feelings, i'm going with focusing on my thoughts. My brain's got extra energy because my body's got none.
Today my main worry has surrounded getting into Pitt. I read online the deadline to apply was March 15. Now, i'm pretty sure I applied by then and they have sent me a couple of letters requesting different peices for my file. They've asked for an essay, which I thought was submitted and a letter of recommendation. They haven't said anything about being past deadline for fall acceptance so hopefully it's still an option.
On another note, I bought a planner yesterday and am working on getting organized and becoming a more effective student. I also was watching the Dr. Oz tv program today and the question came up about sleep problems and hos solution was simply: get yourself on a regular sleep schedule and a restful nights sleep is close in reach.
Time for feed.

April 24
Had a wonderful morning. I enjoy waking up early and waking up with Chris makes it even nicer. Now to some 9 o'clock isn't early but on a Saturday it may as well be sunrise.
I was having second thoughts about choosing dietetics as a major but I've decided it's what i want to make a career of. I will most likely second guess and thirdly and fourthly but I will also try my hardest to keep motivated. Looks like the future may work itself out after all at the cost of anxiety on my behalf.
This is all for now, I have nutrition to study.

These were the hand written, pre-blog entries in hopes of creating a blog. Now I have, and will try my hardest to keep up with my writings. I've decided to highlight the goals I've written about in pink for my own ease of returning to previous blogs and tracking personal progress.

Much love, Nicole.